Aku minta maaf MN :')

Ya Allah :') apa dah aku plh? aku xmk kehilangan org yang aku amat memerlukan dan sayang :'( you were a part of my life and you're still a part of my life. i don't wanna lose you at all but if that's what you want, :') You're my best friend, someone i can be myself. Usually I keep everything to myself, but i share everything with you and to have you go? hurts. </3 that's why i've been crying myself to sleep. I don't know what to do. seriously. Jalan kelak gk? hadoh. tahan jak air mata yaaa mina. nya merajuk ngn kau pun kau dah nak ngis. minaaaaa, cmne cmne :'( that's the reason I don't wanna go. I don't wanna end up crying or trying to do anything stupid. Yknow me.

This is so not me. Usually I cried for one time and the next I'm fine. But this? this is rock bottom. I cried myself to sleep. I literally did. And I never did that before.  Usually I cried and then aku sedar yang aku mk tido. cause tired. But this is different. In the middle of it, I slept. and I just realize it in the morning :') and I did that again tonight. and now i'm awake and i can't express my feelings in twitter nor fb. This is the only way. Thank you google :*

Bena org pdh kan, Org yang sayang lebih akan sakit lebeh :') And for that, I don't want to make you love or think of me anymore. I don't want you to get hurt. anymore. Apa guna nak? :') bagus kau ngn perempuan lain dari kau sakit ati ngn aku.

I can't probably say this to him as he doesn't trust me anymore. Sikpalah, pasrah. Bukan salahnya pun xmk cayak aku gk nak? salah aku. Aku salu gtok. Sayang ne cinta ne org kat aku, aku sikkan nmpk, bila aku dh nampak ya, nya dh pergi. Yala aku tok cuai. hahah :') in shaa Allah akan ku baiki dan takkan ku ulangi silapku.

Oleh sbb nya best friend aku, aku sayang nya, aku terjatuh hati. Tetapi apa sayangnya cintanya plh kat aku? hebatnya. :') Ya Allah. all the memories :') Nya mujok aku bila aku sedih, nya bahagiakan aku, nya plh ku suka gaduh2 ngnnya. haihh betapa bodohnya aku.  hapuskan lah rasa ini. Hapuskan segala duka.

To MN, I'm sorry. Forever sorry. And I won't rest till you forgive me. </aku cinta kau.  :'(

PMR and Stupidos Drama

Assalamualaikum
Sorry it took me so long to update my blog. I'm glad PMR is O-V-E-R over. :D Firstly, PMR? This year's paper is definitely tricky. I mean, LIKE SERIOUSLY. Compare to all the other past year paper, this year? Is definitely NOT a piece of cake. Those nerds showing off 'yeah it was a piece of cake' F MEN! Can I have your brain? hahaha But so far, 2 A's in my hands babes! Alhamdulillah :D all my tuition work paid off. :D
Secondly, Let me tell you about the 'stupidos' drama. There's this dude, Let's just call him PUSAK. well, it started out like this. Last last week, my friends and I went to shukie, then we LEPAKS babessss at City Cafe. Then, we connect the wifi and bla2, skip to the point. My friends used my phone and send a message 'are you still in dp next year' to pusak. then, pusak replied yes and asked me if i'm moving next year. and i told him YES (Which is a LIE) and he told me the truth about my BEST FRIEND. 'Why do you pick a rude and bad guy as your best friend? I'm intrigued.' Mind my language, but shit man. I don't care if you're intrigued, but dude, I'm not picky in this best friend stuff because I know I have my flaws too. You're not much of a person either so don't judge. Then he started telling me everything about my bst friend, and senang cerita, apa gk aku? dah malas layan soh best friend jawab.. ;D and then he started saying that it was all an experiment to see if our friendship is really strong BLAH BLAH BLAH. STFU MAN. Kalau aku tek lurus bendul, nang ku cayak cakap kau. and mun ku cayak cakap kau, nang putus friendship mekduak. Mun putus, bkn aku kau jwb. dkt best friend aku la kau jwb.  Then, we argued in fb using my account in inbox. about 6 people logged in my fb account just to argue with that 'douchebag'. Then, things got out of hand and my best friend asked him to meet him in the classroom. First I went in the classroom, he don't want to face me, but when my best friend comes, 'Hai! Assalamualaikum' again, please mind my language, shit man! You acted like everything's okay. What are you? 5? This ain't a small matter. You back stabbed. and heck yeah, bak kata nizar, we're connected in the social network. It would be the dumbest idea to back stab people, ESPECIALLY best friends. Oh yeah, one thing, jangan libatkan Islam dalam masalah kita, Islam sikda kenak mengenak dengan punca kita gaduh. So why nak libat? Cakap kemain cara Islam cara Islam. Dude, Islam berani. kau ya bagei nak ngis berdepan. Herannnn ku. 
Third, another drama. Well, this topic, I can't tell anyone. It's just a stupid matter. It'll make me cry. haha JK. so emo.

Nyway, Bye till me next entry.

mina xx :)

I need a doctor.

Doctor what you say? Doktor hati HAHAHA EEW MUCH. I really need a doctor. I've got this massive headache like someone's been drilling my head, and the throbbing feeling the pain the spinning around, the stabbing feeling. -.- I don't want to worry to much, but now i have flu and i cough. I wanted to visit the doctor but.. I don't know what to say to my mum. My headache medicine is finish already. :)

A message to you who's not reading this. ;)

I will never be able to earn your forgiveness am I? ;) sikpa la, memang i deserve it kan? It's fine. It's just the guilt that's eating me up. I lost my best friend? And heck yeah it doesn't feel good at all. I don't want you to feel like I don't love you hypothetically. Because I have been in love with you all this time. Hahaha maybe that's the way life is. :) dhlh, I don't want anybody to worry about me, I'm not an attention seeker. Sorry k. Not interested.

This time, single till form 5 :) focus on school studies. School has been a roller coaster ride :o but instead of vomiting, i get sick. DEKAT2 NAK PMR TOK AKU SAKIT! Palak pening sik tentu, sora sengung. Such a disaster man. -.- We want to know ze truth. Crap. You haven't told us the truth, so it's true you've been lying to us since form 2. Actually we all knew, with the chicken pox drama about the model to the brothers and the sick cancer mother then ada mother lagi. I mean, we're not dumb hello? You don't get to fool people, keep your lies on track, tok sik, ketara tauk sik. I'm not encouraging you to lie, but seriously? once is enough dude. We don't go around asking 'YO! Your mother keja apa? keja petronas eh? come be friends with me, don't go around there, that's for the low standards.' We're not like that --' We don't care about standards, just as long as we accept your attitude and we can joke around without making your feelings hurt. That's the friend we've been looking for. sik la kita bguro lebeh2 nya alu sik heart, orang tego pn we accept bh. tk sik, kdk kita tk jaik gilak ngekot standard -.- scuse me, we're nothing like that.

PMR is in 38 Days :) grr berjuang habis-habisan! man, I got 5A's for trial 2. and the B's? 78 78 -.- this is so not cool mennn.

p/s : You make me happy :) xx I think you know who you are :)

Everything happens for a reason :') Jangan salahkan takdir :') mungkin takdir memisahkan kita dengan orang yang tersayang. Maafkan segala kesilapan aku :') you deserve better, you can't be with someone who don't appreciate you. I wish you all the best in life, thank you for everything yang telah ktk korbankan utk kmk :') Benar kata orang, you will start appreciating when you realized you lost them already. Good bye. :')

Terasa?

I heard people saying that someone terasa because of my blog this and that, I know you, and If you're reading, jangan la terasa, ada pasal kitak ka mun kitak terasa gilak? Don't accuse me of such a stupid thing, mature k. Ask me and since sekolah sik sama, dm ka inbox ka tok sik, accuse macam2 kakya I'm not stupid la whatever la, kmk sikda pun padah pasal ktk? Ktk Ada nga nama ktk ya ka? Or memang ktk gya? Suka gilak terasa? Heh mun ktk terasa gilak, fine whatever. My intentions are good,bukan nak nyinde ktk ka apa. Dah2 i don't wanna fight, pmr is coming up. So, get your horses ready and berjuang ;) As the saying says, 'makan cili, terasalah pedasnya.' Whatever la peace out xxx mina 

A best friend, a crush, a brother since form 2

Dude, I'm sorry if you got hurt or anything, I just want you to know, I anggap taduak tk brothers and sisters now. I know kmk melebih layan ktk, and I know I might have raised your hopes high, I'm really sorry, I can't help myself, best layan ktk, you know you're the sweetest thing anyone can ever have, hypothetically, i have my days with you, though you're mean, but you still remain sweet :)  memang Betul kmk tercarik2 ktk after taduak Sik melayan, but now I just feel guilty. I'm really sorry :') Kmk bukan mk main prasaan ktk, i know how that feels, mun ktk pike kmk main pasaan ktk, ktk slh, ktk pun tauk kmk knk main prasaan oleh ex nak? Ktk eboh riso k? You'll find that girl someday, *pump your elbow* but till then, though we're not speaking to each other, I'm always by your side dude, ala anggap je adik engkau yang kau tak pernah ada :p dolok memang crush, but kejap jak, don't know, you were so shy msa form 2. Hahahaha tipu la mun kmk padah kmk sik pernah suka ktk or terjatuh hati, dgn cara ktk layan kmk, hahaha. thanks :) yala you humble boy, layan la pmpuan nk ktk suka dgn baik, cnfirm dpt ;) Dush, till then bro, 'cow lok.' hahaha selamat hari raya, maaf zahir dan batin :)

Raya! Balik kampung! :D

Heyyy! Are you going to kampung this raya? How's the month of fasting? Tiring is it? Well for some people like me, they will feel tired and challenging to fight your nafsu. although i'm tired, but yeah, it was fun. Iftar at school, restaurants and so on. I'm going back to mukah for raya and i'm not really thrill cause tinggal dekat hotel and I'll feel home sick and miss my gulin so much :'( home sick cause the hotel is always so cold and It's been such a long time since I celebrate the first day of eid there ;) Hmm, and anis is going to celebrate eid at kuch :') it won't be like last year anymore, we won't meet at the open hotel as I'm celebrating eid at mukah. We can't go to kuch cause yknow, when we hang out with our cousins, we tend to miss out on our main purpose to be there ;) Leka jak gk ho Azra? Miss you babe ;) after PMR kmk jumpa ktk, together we poret hahahaha tapi you gik sekolah hahahaha lek ah. Go cycling together k? ;) I miss y'all there ;( rindu mk bukak posa sma2 :) till my next entry, xxxx M for mina ;)

Trial and psycho

Hmm trial ONE! (; i didn't expect that i can achieve my no more C target but i did ;) i'm quite happy and i've taken a small step to make my goal 75 and above. I know it's quite high but i don't want to think about my pmr during the raya holidays. I want to get excellent marks for trial 2. Hmmm so far ramadhan for me this year is great. But haihh tang excited jak mk tadarus then the second dayy BAMM sikpat tadarus :( so sad. InsyaAllah next week maybe i can. Kakya, ada laki gila tk. I sik penah bersua pun ngnnya nya bencik aku,pa kes? I was shocked and at the same time, i just blurted out what was in my mind. I knew him from my friend, and they made fun of him while i just sat there, i didn't say anything cause i don't even understand. Hate me boy? F you. I don't freaking care. But one point is sure, that i don't even knew you existed. Bencik gilak kau nga muka aku,brambus la tup mata boh nga, sng hati. Malas melayan org kdk kau. Bak kata pepatah, layan org bodo, kau jd bodo juak (; therefore, i sik layan ;)

I gotta snap out of it. PMR is 3 months away, I've cut all the holidays that we're gonna have. So heck yeah, big reason to worry. Cover all form 1 form 2 pun belom :/ only mathematics, bm, bi only :( the rest? huarghhhhhhhhhhhh! It's hard when everything I do, I sometimes think about that idiot boy who doesn't even know I thought of him. ahh who cares? Dah dah, sik maok main soal hati dan perasan. Serious! PMR! After Pmr, then I can think about this longer. :') There's nothing anyone can do to ease this feeling. Nothing. I repeat NOTHING. I'm all on my own. Sure the hell yeah it's sad but yeah, i'm strong :p hahaha It sometimes got me thinking whenever he upsets me, It's something that that idiot can't do to me. I felt terrible cause that thought came to my mind. I'm a very terrible person. I felt so guilty. I shouldn't even dreamt about that idiot. I don't want to tell anyone. Not anyone about this. I don't want people to think that I'm kenja or whatever la. He has this small piece of me that he took with him. Cewah. hahahahaha lol -.-

Hmmmm

phew. Panic Attack. Anxiety Attack? AHH, the first day i actually finished a glass of cold americano. That same day, as soon as i went home, I felt dizzy, my heart was pounding so fast, I thought i was dying or going insane, I couldn't breathe, I can't even focus when I tried to study, I'm always beware of my surroundings like paranoia. yeah -.- I can't shake of those feelings. But yeah, it's normal. I have a small body and I didn't drink that much, lagi2 I minum coffee yang ada caffein yang grind sendiri. Well, saje je nak coba kan. Now, I can't sleep cause I drank Peach Tea -.- my stomach merajuk ahh. :(

My life is kinda a mess right now. Holidays are for studying. Yeah STUDYING. I end up watching Desperate Housewives and YEAH the whole season 7 and season 8 part 1! and hell yeah, I thought I would be studying during the holidays, but, yeah me and my lazy ass. I can't find a way to get off my lazy ass and study. I mean, Salute those whose always studying and don't have a problem with studying like me. Well, certainly I want to succeed like others, but yeah, this ain't gonna get me no where if i'm lazy. TIPS PLEASE?! I can't seem to get anything in my head, when people think of holidays, I'd be thinking about yknow the type of holiday, the relaxing and taking studies away. but yeah, I can't possibly do that at the mean time. I have to try to reconnect. yes, reconnect. hmm. KHB? yes i do need tuition. KHB is the most boring subject ever! I do understand the first two or three topics that the teachers teach, but yeah, good luck teaching me, cause I'm hell of a student :p hahaha :p jkjk. I just don't seem to like KHB. I don't have any interest or whatsoever. All i'm interested in KHB is the BAB teras, ELEKTRIK. I mean, I like gamba rajah, cause that's the only thing that I'm fast at memorizing. I have a heck of a mind, I know. But yeah, i do forget it as fast as I memorize it. Well the point is, I don't have any interest in studying nowadays. I open my sej book,  and all i can say in my mind was, UGH MALAS, BESOK LAH. I mean, I was so determined. Now? I don't know if i can work that hard for that 8A's. Hmm, I guess i just need pressure. And that's why mum finally got a tutor. and yeah, heck of a tutor, pressure. GEO, MATHS, KHB,BM? ohhh god. BANYAKK DER! and she's coming to the house. grrrrr :3 mum said she's be harsh. -.- It's like I don't have enough pressure in school. hmm yeah -.- believe it or not, mum haven't contacted her yet. SO, i think i'm gonna try to ace the upcoming exam.

The pain

I went home early on tuesday. Reason: I've got migraine! -..- The painnnn :'(
During assembly, I closed my eyes and started to think about stuff. Whether I should go to the doctor or not? But yeah, my boyfriend is kinda worried. I don't want people worrying about me, if not, i might panic. Then, migraine ahh! The day before till last saturday was the day I started having this type of headaches. I mean, I can't even stand up. I can stand up but I'd loose my balance :/ adohmak! so I went home that day, I was so weak, my face was pale, i was shaking like crazy. Then, i slept at home. I felt better but I was still having the usual headache -,- So the next day, we went to the clinic. The doctor checked my blood pressure or something, then checked my eyes. Then, told me my eyes were fine, but yeah, you can never be too careful. and she said, i should monitor my eyes and head :')

Skin Care 101 :p

Okay, I've been trying to try and use oatmeal as my facial wash, you know as my cleanser, but I never really did it. Cause I told myself, If other cleanser don't work on my face, I'm going to use oatmeal :p At least it's cheap and natural, no acid and whatsoever in the chemical cleanser. Well, for me, I've tried Fair and Lovely(makes my face have pimple, but yeah my skin gets fairer), safi(nothing pn?), Loreal(this one, It's good, but when I read the ingredient label, woahh, chemical! So, I decided to ditch it, cause my face has 2 of this what do you call it, the one that looks like the moon -,- hey, not good in bm k), Nano(too expensive, plus, I can't really find it anywhere in a regular store, I mean, grocery shop. But it's good, eventhough bnyk chemical). So now, I'm currently using oatmeal ;p and yeah it's quite good. I'm using oatmeal, Natural's Toner and cream :D and yeah, When I touch my skin, It's very smooth :p hahahaha omgeee mtk puji~ hahahaha jkjk

Moral of the story: Don't use too much chemical on your face. Kelak your face can be peeled off :p hahaha jkjk but seriously don't. It's not good for your skin. Must use skin care everyday.
1st-Cleanse Your Face
2nd-Apply Toner.
3rd-Moisturize
4th-Sunblock or powder.
Other than that, You should use mask, every week, but not every day. Just use according to what the label says. If you have a cold cream, You might wanna buy it if you're going somewhere hot. When you're in school, you might wanna bring tissue or handkerchief cause your face will become oily. But not all skin la, kalau you think your skin is just fine, then, no need to bring la. hahaha, yeah that's all ;D I know, my skin is not the skin yang licin abis like haluss~ but at least I take care of my skin ey? :) Till then, much lovessss xx

Injection? You know, It was a nerve wrecking situation. yattey? She feels like running away from the injection :p hahaha and yeah, I did too, I was scared smpai nak terkemeh dlm seluar! HAHAHA! I don't like injection but I like it when it's over. It just makes me scared looking at those nervous faces facing the nurse with the needle? hmm sucks. So, then, When It was my turn, We had to go test our eyes. I was holding the thing the one that the person asks to hold, So i did, and I was shaking! Like literally shaking, then I laughed, like tiba2 laughed. hahahaha When I'm nervous, I tend to LOL suddenly you know? hahaha then, when we lined up to check our heart beats, My heart is beating like a drum BOOM BE DOOM BOOM BOOM BE DOOM BOOM BAZE GOT THAT SUPERBASS! HAHAHAHAHAHA! Then my turn! and I think the doctor knew that I was nervous. Who am I kidding, He was the one who's checking my heart beat, of couse he knows, Pssh, silly me. hahaha Then, the injection? -,- The nurse was scaring the metaphorical cat out of me. And yeah, When she puts the needle in my skin, I thought it's done, I wanted to walk away, but she was so TIMING! -,- She's like a grandmaa~ She puts the needle in my skin, then she slowly pressed the syringe -,- then she took out the needle -,- ain't that timing? -.- then it hurts like what -,- I can't tie my shoe laces, and the place where she injected? Bleeding -,- More than I expected. I got scared. Well I have a thing for blood. HAHAHA I never really liked looking at blood. It scares me. I get dizzy and ee ee ee -,- eew hahaha! Then, yesterday, I walked and talked with my best friend otw to the bengkel. We talked about tuition and whatsoever, past and more. hahaha we're weird :p hahaha! then when mk pulg, jln ngn geng nya juak. But i knew he wanted to tease me, so I hit him, on the left hand! I FORGOT! then he told me,'aku baruk jak injection kau pukol aku.' omgee I'm so sorry. hahaha my bad. My habit of hitting people especially my anis :D hahahaha it's just fun. hahaha 

-,-

DAMMIT! hmm! I can't find my tudung! I always use tudung bawal. I never did use tudung yang main masok or hana tajima or whatsoever! -,- Not that I don't like it, But for me, Tudung bawal is very simple and I'm a simple girl, so it fits :) But today? arghhh! I can't find it, not here not there not anywhere! lol so so so skiiima~ hahaha it's skema but I like to pronounce it as skimaa~ hahaha ;p well, My own ways! don't like it? don't care. hahaha :p I know I'm lame for not using tudung ikut trend skrg or whatever, but who cares? Hati mok pakai tudung, pakai lah, asal pakai. kalau pakai tudung sbb nak ikut trend or ikut muka nak sma cantik mcm hana tajima, tak guna bah! It's not worth it. people use tudung for Allah. Tutupkn our rmbt :) true? yeah, this is my opinion. But if you got offended, sekati dikpun la. hahahaha I don't care, cause I wasn't offending anybody. but anyway, niat mok tutup aurat jak bah. SO, I know I'm going to go grocery shopping after Zohor, I have time searching for the tudung, but yeah, Malas. hahaha! malas nak tanya sesat jalan~ ehh pepatah sendiri? hahaha :p pandai2 je aku ni~ hahahaha So, i guess just this one time using tudung main msok, tak sakit kn? hahaha asal tutup aurat :) But weird and buuuuulat my muka :p hahaha kalau jmpa, jgn lupa tegur! Assalamualaikum, kalau nak sayang jawab! kalau nak dosa, jangan jwb :p Bye

Blogging and studying?

Okay recently I have been spending a lot of time blogging then studying -,- This bothers me. But on the bright sight, I improved a lot in my essays. Our english teacher, Mdm Maria, She told us to do an essay about the ways to attract more students to the library for the Pusat Sumber Week. And yeah, I had no ideas. I'm very clueless. But in exams, I can do pretty well and all the ideas just comes to me, one by one! and it feels great. Just like when it's a very cold day, and you need to cool your body, so you went in the shower with hot water ohh damn~ feels great hahaha :p but back to the main point. When I was clueless, I actually thought of a lot of things, You know I was actually day dreaming and cun time ya we had a fight, but I didn't do anything, I just sat there and thought a lot about him and then I thought about the essay I was supposed to finish. Then, unexpectedly, I though about blogging! BLOGGING! Like seriously BLOGGING! I was missing my blog so much, I need to post something! Then I wrote down the introduction of my essay. At the same time, I thought about my blog, then, I wrote down all the ideas that I suddenly have. Writing my essay, I thought about writing in my blog. I was smiling like a crazy person when all the ideas just came in my mind! :D Then I finally passed my essay :)

The beauty is in the eyes of the beholder

I don't like people yang pakai contact lens -,- seriously? perlu kh? I mean, Malaysian takde blue purple green or whatever colour eyes -,- I mean, Teenagers are too young to use it. Kalau adult or young adult, kita tgk pun, tak ingga. tol tak? It's normal kalau tengok kat young adult. But teenagers yang mseh skolah? hehe sorry to say, look like whaaa~ hehe :p Kalau terasa, sorry. I'm only expressing what I feel. Just like this blogger said, 'Blog to express not to impress.' Kalau tak suka, kindly press the button X kat tepi tu :p or just press ALT and F14 (:
K back to the story, this blogger also said, kalau pakai contacts pun, just use transparent, tak payah nak tukar2 the colour of your pupil. and then, the second point is, it doesn't suit your skin. Kalau your skin ya tan or dark? jangan lah pakai contacts yang bercolour -,- proud to be asian and malaysian. Some beli yang utk besarkn mata. Like seriously? Mata sepet is hot bah. Like my boyfriend *ehem ehem* hehe perasan sangatttt~ I know big eyes tu is pretty and whatsoever -,- but actually, natural beauty is better. As the saying says, 'The beauty is on the eyes of the beholder.'

I knew I loved you before I met you.

Awww :') I love this picture :') AzminAnis15LMSA ;)
1-Lufti
2-Mia
3-Saif
4-Arissaa
(: Kalau tere, guess sapa punya nama tu :p hehehehehe <3
Sikmok gaduh gk k bie? I know kmk mala sik tahan and bie mala sabar dgn kmk :') Thank you honey sbb mala sabar and understand me :') I know you cried in class today, I'm sorry :'( I know you don't want me to hug a boy or whatever but tomorrow is our special 15 :') So I can't help it taduak sik melayan aritok ;') So I text you and thanks to the kakak yang berik buku syamin, I can finally have a reason to text you :') and when I texted you, I just hope that you didn't put silent or anything. I just don't want taduak rasa akward tomorrow :( After this, I hope there will be no more fights :') I'm willing to do anything for you, When pulg tadik, Kmk sanggup mk pgi kelas ktk, but kmk sik maok ganggu ktk dlm kelas, maybe ada luar sidang or anything. that's why kmk trus tnyk kak qursiah ne ktk. And dgn hampanya nya pdh sik tauk, and kmk dah give up on looking for you, so, kmk dok rilek and trus pulg lekak ya :') I miss you badly ;'( That;s why I wanna text you :( I don't want to hukum you! You know how it feels like when I sik layan abg? :( Hmm yesss suckksss a lot :'( I know you bring this to school..

This is from my childhood. I'm willing to give it to you :') and my 'Anis' is also from your childhood right? ;') My heart already belongs to you on 1997 :') I knew I loved you before I met you :')

Maruah Diri Perempuan.

Perempuan.
Yeah girls. G to the I to the R to the L to the S :D Yes, girls. I'm a girl. yeah. But, mana letak nilai perempuan zaman sekarang ekk? Nak jual diri tepi pasar, omgeee stop la. I hate looking at sick girls like that. Jangan nak beri malu perempuan boleh tak? I mean, all the prostitute websites and so on, Just DISGUSTS me. I mean, Tak takut ke kalau hidap penyakit aids? or berjangkit mcm2 penyakit dri laki? Yala, prostitute tek nak? Maruah dah tercemar. Yala, kalau dah tercemar, sebarang je boleh show tu show ni kan? mcm perempuan murahan kan? eh mmg pun perempuan murahan. Perempuan mcm ni kan, yang dah desperate mls nak belajar or mmg desperate nak dpt duit. Takda kerja yang halal ke? At least dapat pahala drpd jd perempuan murahan dapat gaji lumayan tpi kerja haram. percuma je dapat dosa tau. It's wrong. I mean tak bermaksud slut will always be slut. If Allah beri Hidayah, I'm sure they will change and bertaubat ke jalan Allah, to the right path of life :) So, kita ni kan, sbg perempuan or masyarakat kn, patut doa untuk perempuan mcm ni to bertaubat la secepat mungkin :) Nilai diri seorang perempuan adalah lebih mahal drpd 2k ke 3k ke. More expensive. Remember that you will marry someone like you. If you're suci, org yang dikahwini mestilah suci gak. Fikir logic la ho? but yeah, maruah diri seorg perempuan lebih drpd harga berlian yang paling mahal di dunia. Their maruah is only for their husband and mahram.

Judgemental -.-

Confession : I hate judgemental people -.-
Human isn't perfect. So why judge? WHY? As if you have the right to judge one another. Don't find other people's faults, find your own first. It's not a suggestion, it's a must, a priority. Seriously? Don't judge people. Like Aiman Azlan says, Give a thousand reasons. yeah ;D

Like people yang used to pakai tudung, but sik pakai or nampak je pakai dlm internet but bila jumpa, tak pakai. jangan la judge. bagi je la dia nasihat, kalau tak nak dengar takpe. Asal nasihat je kan. But kalau dia amok tak tentu pasal, tu you deal la yourself. hahaha :p kau berani buat, berani la tanggung. So, saknya lah cya. I mean, do we need to care about people's sins? No right? We can only pray and just give an advice. But SOME people, judges. They don't have the right to judge at all. I mean, lagik2 Allah doesn't judge people for their past. Apa lagik kta tk nk hamba nya yang hina? Haa? That is some thing you guys should bear in mind.
Give them a thousand excuse, maybe she doesn't wear tudung because her parents doesn't let her? nehhh that's what Aiman Azlan says. Well I like watching people speak in youtube. hahaha yknow what i mean. hahaha :D

Then those who judge a book by it's cover. That's just offensive. I mean, You judge dri luaran, like dia cantik or whatever lalu lah dia tu jdi awek kau. But bila dah tahu dia tu ada penyakit ke apeke, you didn't even pandang dia sikit pun. haihhhhh -.-  apala nak jadi -.-

So one thing is for sure, WE HAVE NO RIGHT TO JUDGE. ALLAH DOESN'T JUDGE US FOR OUR PAST. SO RENUNG2 KAN LAH, ARE WE RIGHTFUL TO JUDGE OTHERS SEDANGKAN WE ALSO HAVE SINS.

I apologize for using manglish :p
Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Peace No War.

Holidays

Assalamualaikum (:
Okay, the reason I'm always blogging is that I'm bored and it's the holiday. I know i'm supposed to study and all, cause this is the year. MY YEAR. MY TURN! I wanna keep my record clean. 4A 1B, now, i want straight A's. Allah please give it to me. Guide me :) I want that A! dammit i want it :D The A it means a lot :D hahahaha my God, why am i obsessing. hahaha well, it's normal.

Well, I'm always worried cause I'm scared it'll be UPSR all over again. I didn't study and paid attention to what the Science teacher was saying in class. As a result, I got a B :D it's better than a C. I know my standard. I can't have a C. That's not my standard. I'm an A or B student. If i got a C, i'm disappointed. I mean I always got a C in exams and i thought it was good enough, but now, hell no, not good! But yeah Hakuna Matata :D

It means no worries :D I mean, I'm a confident girl, but seriously not OVER confident. I just believe I can do it (: I know it. I want the A not because of the popularity or anything, cause yknow if you got an A, your picture will be in the magazine, sucks much? hahaha But because I don't want to embarrass myself and looking like a fool, and of course i want to make my parents proud.

and Hey, that's all from me, just blogging bout random stuffs. hahaha yeah, so
Assalamualaikum w.b.t, Bye Bye :D

School This Week (:

Assalamualaikum (:
Okay regarding the title 'School This Week.' You know, i though this week is going to be a tough week. A lot of sindiran and so on. But, nasib (: Alhamdulillah I get to know all the teacher's who's teaching me and as always, the English teacher is my favourite. hahaha! probably cause i love English. Then there's this psycho BM teacher. He seems happy, and always puts a smile on his face. but nak tahu? dia tu kuat psycho! He smiles but he's really mad. lol i can't imagine someone who is as patient as him. seriously? I'm the type who overreact when I'm mad yknow. Then i regret it, but move on and apologize. My uncle once said, during the month of Ramadhan, 'You must forgive someone who has done something wrong to you, and apologize. If not, sik berkat.' :') I still remember what he said till today. So, I apologize to the person who I'm not OKAY with. But yeah, as long as i apologize (: If he doesn't want to forgive, it's okay. It's his choice. I don't want to be tulah especially this year. PMR ):

I thought this week would be rough, but it's not. I'm just scared. Scared of the teachers. I'm always like that. If a strict teacher teaches me, I'd be very very very focus in his/her lesson. I know i'm such a weenie :p but i don't want to talk about the teachers behind my back :( I don't want to tulah Pmr. really I don't. My goal is to achieve Straight A's. I know I'm not that clever, but I believe I can do it. I'm just lazy. That's all :p My parents always give something in return if I do well in exams (: SO, I want to prove something to myself (That I can do it) and of course i want the 'something in return.' hahahaha ;p seriously i do :p

This week, I learn how to save :p I never really did spent my money. I spent only Rm2 :p I'm saving to get something for someone (: hmmm, and i know what that something is. bajet : 150 :p
This week, our class teacher made us sit according to the name list and damn the name list -.- I sat next to a guy, in the front row. it's so sad. teacher would always look. but luckily i didn't sit in front of the teacher. that would be really akward cause i'm really very very shy and loner. hahaha :p
Then, During recess, I'd be at 3j. But with him, cause I don't dare to go there alone.
SO, Overall, This week is a normal week and tiring week. I still sleep at 2 :p Holiday Mood :) hahahaha!