Alhamdulillah :) ♥

Sometimes I feel like this year was the worst among the all of the wonderful years I've been through. This year really broke my spirit :( I feel much rage of anger and despair :') I do feel love too, but Love is wonderful :') I can't really control my rage of anger or despair :'( I hope I don't change too much :( I really should just accept what's coming for me :') For Instance, Criticism, Embarrassment etc. What happened to me? Have I changed? I used to be the happy-go-lucky girl! I used to feel good about myself! I used to feel like nothing can break my spirit down! I used to be secure! I used to be immature! well, i'm actually still immature :p This will somehow change anyway :p so pfft, i don't really care :p Who am I now? Have I changed Completely? :'( *sigh* I hope not :/ I know Allah is always there for me EVERY STEP OF THE WAY TO A BEAUTIFUL AND CALM LIFE ;') ♥ I know I may not be perfect, or the ALIM type of girl, But I try to be a better Muslim :') I'll try to be a MUKMIN ;') ♥ I know I can :') I won't crumble down just because of a problem! I'll try to solve it! I know Allah won't give me tasks that I won't be able to do :') I won't be facing those tasks alone :') I have my wonderful family, my caring friends, my love :') ♥ They support me for everything I do :') They will lead me to a better life ;') This is all thanks to Allah ;') Thank You Allah :') All praises to Allah :') ♥ Thank you for my family, my friends and my love :') ♥ This helps me to be strong and awakened my spirit :') I need you in my life, Allah :') ♥

Alhamdulillah, Thank You, Allah ♥

Stupid Choir

Yeah, There's this teacher in our school. I hate him. I don't hate people without any reasons you know?! Well, yesterday, on the 14th of 10 of 11, maths period(the last period of the day), he suddenly came to our class. In my mind, I was thinking, OH SHOOT, I KNOW WHAT HE'S GONNA DO! He walked in our class and asked permission from Cikgu Yiak Ping Wei(beloved Maths teacher) to take a bit of her time and F*ck yeah I was having fun doing maths. Then he said something about us not participating in choir and not going to the choir practices. Then, He asked those who hasn't even went to the choir practice to stand up. So we did stand up. Almost the whole Class.

Then, he asked those who doesn't have any reason to why we're not coming to the choir practice to sit down. So, Almost the whole class sat down. Only, Hazlan(My Boy Bestfriend), Fiqah(My Bestfriend), Ummu(My Classmate) and Amylia(My Classmate/Good Friend). Well, Amy's excuse was She doesn't have any transport. That teacher replied, you can always stay in the school dorm. WHAT THE F?! School Almost End, AND AMY IS ABOUT TO MOVE! bodo kau ya! seriously? Can't give a more STUPID REPLY?! Then he asked Lan, Lan said He wasn't interested. YEAHHH YOU ROCK LAN! The teacher starts nagging about jasa. bla bla bla. Then It's my turn. I said I wasn't feeling well. Yeah, He doesn't believe me. what the f? my face was pale, my lips are dried, my voice sounds like optimus, I have flu and you still don't believe? yeah like Nizar said that day, Oh F*ck Him. Then it's fikah's turn. Well Fikah didn't really get a bad resp. Then, Ummu's turn. Ummu said her parents don't let her stay till afternoon for practice. Then he said we x menghargai jasa sekolah bla bla bla. seriously? If parents don't let, What is she supposed to do? melawan ckp parents? jadi anak derhaka? You're selling fish!

The Whole Class was mad and had no mood that day. Yeah fuck who has mood?! I felt sorry for Grace(my bestfriend), She cried cause many teachers hate her. Well screw em all grace. Don't give a damn what others think. They hate you cause they're just jealous. Anyway, Thanks for Easing me and Nizar :) Nizar was so so mad. PIANO EXAM ISN'T CHEAP! -.- Pity him :/ yeah, Hate that teacher -.-

The End

Well, about my so called bestfriend, we're all settle ;) we all cried when she cried and we do know how it felt like to be so lonely. i'm sorry :( we did a lot to you. but we finally confessed what's on our minds :) please, no hard feelings? :)

To Be Continued :p

More about my so-called bestfriend. She wants to complain to teacher about us bullying her. Whatever. I hope teacher doesn't support her. Nya sik pike bah! She knows we're talking about her. Why don't she confront us? Is that so hard to do? You know, If you want friends, Don't be a backstabber. Kalau nak kawan ramai, nak boipren ramai, perangai tu berubah. Dah tahu susu tu kendur ada hati nak melompat sana sini, berlari lari. -.- She's proud that her bra doesn't have the PRAKKK sound after we pull and let go -.-

An Adventure

I had a very very BAD DAY on last last thursday! I accidentally brought my phone to school. Hey, It isn't my fault. Teachers don't believe my reason -,- it's okay, at least i was honest :) who cares really. I don't mind. But I was lectured by my parents and grandmother. oh well, seriously? you can just claim the phone end of school and END OF STORY. but it's okay, I don't really mind. Cause I'm sulking! I don't want a phone anymore!!! SHHH -.-

p/s: Be Honest to yourself :) It's the best way, eventhough no one really trust you :D just be honest. Tak berdosa ;)