Hmmmm

phew. Panic Attack. Anxiety Attack? AHH, the first day i actually finished a glass of cold americano. That same day, as soon as i went home, I felt dizzy, my heart was pounding so fast, I thought i was dying or going insane, I couldn't breathe, I can't even focus when I tried to study, I'm always beware of my surroundings like paranoia. yeah -.- I can't shake of those feelings. But yeah, it's normal. I have a small body and I didn't drink that much, lagi2 I minum coffee yang ada caffein yang grind sendiri. Well, saje je nak coba kan. Now, I can't sleep cause I drank Peach Tea -.- my stomach merajuk ahh. :(

My life is kinda a mess right now. Holidays are for studying. Yeah STUDYING. I end up watching Desperate Housewives and YEAH the whole season 7 and season 8 part 1! and hell yeah, I thought I would be studying during the holidays, but, yeah me and my lazy ass. I can't find a way to get off my lazy ass and study. I mean, Salute those whose always studying and don't have a problem with studying like me. Well, certainly I want to succeed like others, but yeah, this ain't gonna get me no where if i'm lazy. TIPS PLEASE?! I can't seem to get anything in my head, when people think of holidays, I'd be thinking about yknow the type of holiday, the relaxing and taking studies away. but yeah, I can't possibly do that at the mean time. I have to try to reconnect. yes, reconnect. hmm. KHB? yes i do need tuition. KHB is the most boring subject ever! I do understand the first two or three topics that the teachers teach, but yeah, good luck teaching me, cause I'm hell of a student :p hahaha :p jkjk. I just don't seem to like KHB. I don't have any interest or whatsoever. All i'm interested in KHB is the BAB teras, ELEKTRIK. I mean, I like gamba rajah, cause that's the only thing that I'm fast at memorizing. I have a heck of a mind, I know. But yeah, i do forget it as fast as I memorize it. Well the point is, I don't have any interest in studying nowadays. I open my sej book,  and all i can say in my mind was, UGH MALAS, BESOK LAH. I mean, I was so determined. Now? I don't know if i can work that hard for that 8A's. Hmm, I guess i just need pressure. And that's why mum finally got a tutor. and yeah, heck of a tutor, pressure. GEO, MATHS, KHB,BM? ohhh god. BANYAKK DER! and she's coming to the house. grrrrr :3 mum said she's be harsh. -.- It's like I don't have enough pressure in school. hmm yeah -.- believe it or not, mum haven't contacted her yet. SO, i think i'm gonna try to ace the upcoming exam.

The pain

I went home early on tuesday. Reason: I've got migraine! -..- The painnnn :'(
During assembly, I closed my eyes and started to think about stuff. Whether I should go to the doctor or not? But yeah, my boyfriend is kinda worried. I don't want people worrying about me, if not, i might panic. Then, migraine ahh! The day before till last saturday was the day I started having this type of headaches. I mean, I can't even stand up. I can stand up but I'd loose my balance :/ adohmak! so I went home that day, I was so weak, my face was pale, i was shaking like crazy. Then, i slept at home. I felt better but I was still having the usual headache -,- So the next day, we went to the clinic. The doctor checked my blood pressure or something, then checked my eyes. Then, told me my eyes were fine, but yeah, you can never be too careful. and she said, i should monitor my eyes and head :')

Skin Care 101 :p

Okay, I've been trying to try and use oatmeal as my facial wash, you know as my cleanser, but I never really did it. Cause I told myself, If other cleanser don't work on my face, I'm going to use oatmeal :p At least it's cheap and natural, no acid and whatsoever in the chemical cleanser. Well, for me, I've tried Fair and Lovely(makes my face have pimple, but yeah my skin gets fairer), safi(nothing pn?), Loreal(this one, It's good, but when I read the ingredient label, woahh, chemical! So, I decided to ditch it, cause my face has 2 of this what do you call it, the one that looks like the moon -,- hey, not good in bm k), Nano(too expensive, plus, I can't really find it anywhere in a regular store, I mean, grocery shop. But it's good, eventhough bnyk chemical). So now, I'm currently using oatmeal ;p and yeah it's quite good. I'm using oatmeal, Natural's Toner and cream :D and yeah, When I touch my skin, It's very smooth :p hahahaha omgeee mtk puji~ hahahaha jkjk

Moral of the story: Don't use too much chemical on your face. Kelak your face can be peeled off :p hahaha jkjk but seriously don't. It's not good for your skin. Must use skin care everyday.
1st-Cleanse Your Face
2nd-Apply Toner.
3rd-Moisturize
4th-Sunblock or powder.
Other than that, You should use mask, every week, but not every day. Just use according to what the label says. If you have a cold cream, You might wanna buy it if you're going somewhere hot. When you're in school, you might wanna bring tissue or handkerchief cause your face will become oily. But not all skin la, kalau you think your skin is just fine, then, no need to bring la. hahaha, yeah that's all ;D I know, my skin is not the skin yang licin abis like haluss~ but at least I take care of my skin ey? :) Till then, much lovessss xx

Injection? You know, It was a nerve wrecking situation. yattey? She feels like running away from the injection :p hahaha and yeah, I did too, I was scared smpai nak terkemeh dlm seluar! HAHAHA! I don't like injection but I like it when it's over. It just makes me scared looking at those nervous faces facing the nurse with the needle? hmm sucks. So, then, When It was my turn, We had to go test our eyes. I was holding the thing the one that the person asks to hold, So i did, and I was shaking! Like literally shaking, then I laughed, like tiba2 laughed. hahahaha When I'm nervous, I tend to LOL suddenly you know? hahaha then, when we lined up to check our heart beats, My heart is beating like a drum BOOM BE DOOM BOOM BOOM BE DOOM BOOM BAZE GOT THAT SUPERBASS! HAHAHAHAHAHA! Then my turn! and I think the doctor knew that I was nervous. Who am I kidding, He was the one who's checking my heart beat, of couse he knows, Pssh, silly me. hahaha Then, the injection? -,- The nurse was scaring the metaphorical cat out of me. And yeah, When she puts the needle in my skin, I thought it's done, I wanted to walk away, but she was so TIMING! -,- She's like a grandmaa~ She puts the needle in my skin, then she slowly pressed the syringe -,- then she took out the needle -,- ain't that timing? -.- then it hurts like what -,- I can't tie my shoe laces, and the place where she injected? Bleeding -,- More than I expected. I got scared. Well I have a thing for blood. HAHAHA I never really liked looking at blood. It scares me. I get dizzy and ee ee ee -,- eew hahaha! Then, yesterday, I walked and talked with my best friend otw to the bengkel. We talked about tuition and whatsoever, past and more. hahaha we're weird :p hahaha! then when mk pulg, jln ngn geng nya juak. But i knew he wanted to tease me, so I hit him, on the left hand! I FORGOT! then he told me,'aku baruk jak injection kau pukol aku.' omgee I'm so sorry. hahaha my bad. My habit of hitting people especially my anis :D hahahaha it's just fun. hahaha 

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DAMMIT! hmm! I can't find my tudung! I always use tudung bawal. I never did use tudung yang main masok or hana tajima or whatsoever! -,- Not that I don't like it, But for me, Tudung bawal is very simple and I'm a simple girl, so it fits :) But today? arghhh! I can't find it, not here not there not anywhere! lol so so so skiiima~ hahaha it's skema but I like to pronounce it as skimaa~ hahaha ;p well, My own ways! don't like it? don't care. hahaha :p I know I'm lame for not using tudung ikut trend skrg or whatever, but who cares? Hati mok pakai tudung, pakai lah, asal pakai. kalau pakai tudung sbb nak ikut trend or ikut muka nak sma cantik mcm hana tajima, tak guna bah! It's not worth it. people use tudung for Allah. Tutupkn our rmbt :) true? yeah, this is my opinion. But if you got offended, sekati dikpun la. hahahaha I don't care, cause I wasn't offending anybody. but anyway, niat mok tutup aurat jak bah. SO, I know I'm going to go grocery shopping after Zohor, I have time searching for the tudung, but yeah, Malas. hahaha! malas nak tanya sesat jalan~ ehh pepatah sendiri? hahaha :p pandai2 je aku ni~ hahahaha So, i guess just this one time using tudung main msok, tak sakit kn? hahaha asal tutup aurat :) But weird and buuuuulat my muka :p hahaha kalau jmpa, jgn lupa tegur! Assalamualaikum, kalau nak sayang jawab! kalau nak dosa, jangan jwb :p Bye

Blogging and studying?

Okay recently I have been spending a lot of time blogging then studying -,- This bothers me. But on the bright sight, I improved a lot in my essays. Our english teacher, Mdm Maria, She told us to do an essay about the ways to attract more students to the library for the Pusat Sumber Week. And yeah, I had no ideas. I'm very clueless. But in exams, I can do pretty well and all the ideas just comes to me, one by one! and it feels great. Just like when it's a very cold day, and you need to cool your body, so you went in the shower with hot water ohh damn~ feels great hahaha :p but back to the main point. When I was clueless, I actually thought of a lot of things, You know I was actually day dreaming and cun time ya we had a fight, but I didn't do anything, I just sat there and thought a lot about him and then I thought about the essay I was supposed to finish. Then, unexpectedly, I though about blogging! BLOGGING! Like seriously BLOGGING! I was missing my blog so much, I need to post something! Then I wrote down the introduction of my essay. At the same time, I thought about my blog, then, I wrote down all the ideas that I suddenly have. Writing my essay, I thought about writing in my blog. I was smiling like a crazy person when all the ideas just came in my mind! :D Then I finally passed my essay :)